Farewell, grandpa

It was several days after my grandpa pass away.

I'm not posting anything about my grandpa in my social media for him. I feeling guility for cannot go back and have a talk with him at the end of his life because I'm really far away from him. I was going to see him next Christmas but I was very sad to hear that bad news for he goes away suddenly.

It was very breakhearted for me because I really hope to see him again with my daughter and my son whom he must be happy to see. Unfortunately, my son was born in Australia and he has not got passport yet so i can't take him back. When my last meet with grandpa, he still look good although i know he already suffered by illness for a long time. He always trying to pacify me that he is still in good condition and don't worry about him. I cannot tell how much pain he had every day in the past year.

When I starting to migrate to Australia, he support me a lot and I was very happy to know my grandpa also in my side. I might not see him at all in the future. I hope my grandpa wasn't blame my absence.

Farewell, my grandpa.

外公去世了好些天了.

我并没有在任何社交媒体上发关于外公离开的消息, 这种思念并没有必要给别人看吧. 没有见到外公最后一面, 心理感到很内疚. 本来计划下一个圣诞假期, 我就能带着孩子回去看他的, 没想到坏消息来的这么快, 让人措手不及.

真的很希望能让外公见到他的外孙女和外孙一面的, 我想, 他看到他们的时候一定会很开心的. 但是因为儿子并没有护照, 所以一直迟迟没有回去. 最后一面看到外公, 是去年的时候, 看起来气色还不错. 虽然其实我知道他已经生病很久了, 他见了我一直会跟我说, 他身体还很好, 让我放心. 我不能想象在过去的一年里每天他会有多么难受.

非常感谢在我决定来澳洲的时候外公的支持, 其实也是很意外他会支持我, 虽然这并不是我来的根本原因. 也许我再也没有办法看到我的外公了, 希望外公不会因为我没有回去而责备我.

这里是纯中文额内容了:

我不知道写这些有什么用, 其实我只是想记录一下. 我因为爷爷过世的早, 所以平时也不怎么称呼为外公, 而是直接叫爷爷. 因为其实我并不会把这份愧疚说出来, 我觉得这是个人的事情, 很小的时候, 一放假, 我就会到外公家玩耍. 长大一些了, 还是会去外公家玩. 外公喜欢下象棋, 打牌, 我印象中, 他都是会去棋牌中心度过闲暇时光. 外公会讲道理, 我也知道外公每次看我回去都会希望我多留下一会, 但是他也总会说, 有事就早点回去, 工作重要. 您什么都能理解我们, 生怕给我们带来一点麻烦.

可惜茉茉, 多多还不懂事, 茉茉周岁的时候见过外公一面, 应该也忘记了吧.

已经过了好些天了, 希望外公即使看不到这些也能在天堂开心的下象棋打牌, 我知道外公是一个好心人, 他一定会在天堂继续他的生活, 再也没有痛苦.

外公啊, 我知道您是开心的离开的, 希望您也能一直这么开心下去. 能和你们一起曾经生活在一起, 是我的幸福, 也是我最开心的岁月之一.

外公啊, 如果你看的到我, 看的到我写的话, 我没来得及看您最后一面, 只能在视频里看到您, 希望您不要介意. 你一定要记得, 不要抽烟了, 少喝酒了.

外公啊, 我和妈妈都会很想念你的, 茉茉也长大懂事了, 都能照顾弟弟了. 我也挺好的, 我在这里生活都还好, 您也不用担心, 希望有一天, 能成为您的骄傲.